This year has not been as pleasant... I'm not sure if it's because last year was hard and I feel afraid. I know the power of words... I will say now as I look back on 2012 I am thankful for the gift of Authenticity.. I feel like I have peeled back some layers ok alot of layers.. back to the bare bones sort of feeling and now I have this chance to grow, to heal.
"There are far better things ahead than any we leave behind" C.S. Lewis
A wise wise friend shared with me this morning some things that made finalizing my word a bit clearer. The red dot analogy.. when you look on a map and try to figure out how to get to your destination you have to be pretty clear where you are on the map. You can't move forward till you see the red dot which is you. Where you want to go is irrelevant. I think you have to be ok with the red dot.. and I think it's time to be real about where that red dot is. My layers are peeled back and I am committed to staying authentic - alot of those layers this last year have left some scars... they are healing ... I am so thankful they are finally beginning to heel. I decided that it was time to fly and I couldn't fly without letting go of the shit that was weighing me down. After all you can't start the next chapter of your life if you are always re-reading the last one.
So... where are we? I am starting fresh. I am planning to embrace my story. embrace the journey. Sometimes the hardest part of the journey is believing you are worthy of the trip.
It's time to own my Value and my Worth. I was sitting at a friends table tonight sharing about the struggle for a word this year... I spoke out some of the words I was thinking of.. words are important to me. She laughed and said "Maybe one day you will have them tattooed all up your arm...." I looked down at my left wrist and it hit me.. Imprinted on my wrist.. my word. My 2013. It encompasses all i want to believe.. for myself, for others... for who I am. It's perfect. I am Worthy. It's time I start believing it.
Embrace Who I am
Take the journey back to self
Love with Depth
Kill the desire to sabotage myself
Be at peace with my story
Happy with my red dot