Thursday, May 22, 2014

celebrate eight


During random moments over the past week I have turned to the Stallion with wide eyes and wondered aloud.. how are they turning 8 this week? well today is the day we celebrate eight. 8 years with our boys. What an adventure it has been.
They made me a mama and they have walked this road with me as I learn how best to nurture them. It has not been very easy and those first few years are ones I am thankful they may not remember. One thing is for sure. I am so blessed to be called their mum. They have helped me grow, helped me realize I am enough and made me a far better person than I ever could have been without them.
Ari my first born.. although a sneaky move got you the title of out first. You were always Baby B. You are kind, caring, compassionate and full of a tender heart. You see the world through the eyes of an inventor. You want to know how things work, how they came to be and you thrive on learning facts about everything. Your love for knowledge has been evident this year as you have thrived on studying First Nations people, Nova Scotia and your favorite The Bluenose. You know facts about those things that most people don't. You love studying how things work and your lego building shows that following the instructions is usually boring but building something bigger and better and from the blueprint of your mind is far better.
You have close friends - you see your friendships in quality not in quantity. I love the loyalness in your heart. You are my snuggle bunny and I love how you tell me even when you are all big and grown up you will stay my snuggle bunny forever. Does my mama heart good.

With a spring in your step, a thirst for knowledge and a deep caring heart skies the limit for you my boy. When skies are grey you always make sure we all still see the sun.
Noah. Our leader. You are wild, fun & free. You dance to the beat of your own drum. You love people. You love having friends and being a friend. You crave attention and praise. You remind me it's ok to be loud and have fun. You are learning so much this year about the little leader inside of you. We are so thankful for your teacher this year. She has really helped point you like an arrow in the right direction. Boys so full of spunk like you, full of stories and thought can either use their powers for good or for bad. She has really shown you that you can be used for good. I am proud of you and your love for writing your own stories, for taking on chapter books with pride.
We don't always see eye to eye these days.. but I often sit back and am thankful for your beyond the box thinking, for not wanting to settle for things you don't understand. Your energy and zest for life will make you great Noah.  I pray you will be the kind of leader you would want to follow and that you will be full of inspiration and motivation that make others want to do good.

May your eyes always be filled with wonder & may you never settle with an answer you don't fully understand. May your days be filled with running full blast at the things you want... you are the kind of guy that will chase those dreams and tackle them head first.
My biggest hope is that my boys will always go after their dreams, pursue justice & be filled with compassion. Raising kids is no joke.. Thankful our journey is always part of the bigger picture. Ah that's a good reminder... Let us all be looking towards the bigger picture.
Happy Birthday Noah
Happy Birthday Ari


Sunday, May 04, 2014

take another little piece of my heart....

I meant to write this post last week but it was a tough week for me emotionally and physically. This may be all over the place but I need to get it out...

I have been on a journey.. I'm always on a journey... I said to someone this week it feels like I am always in the pruning stage.. I always want to learn I want to be captivated, chasing running after God's heart and He is just not done with me... He is constantly teaching me things. I think this year I am just finally really listening. I want to chase after His heart. His ways are SO good.

I took a hit this week that normally would have wrecked me.. thankfully I have people in my life who can help me see it for what it was.. someone else's stuff .. they tried to project it onto me and for the first time I could see it for what it was. Nothing I needed to pick up and carry. I am always who I am.. I wear my heart on my sleeve. My beautiful friend Carmen sent me this graphic.

Isn't that awesome. I love it. It so resonates with me. I am finding this new adventure I am on.. the thrill the rush..  the more I see the more I want. Ok.. ANYWAYS.

Here I am.. sitting on so much passion I feel like I may burst. I am daily connecting with new people and being able to share my love of Young Living Essential Oils.. I want to invite you to a seat inside my head just for a moment.. ;)

I have no interest in selling you anything. I sold Norwex for years.. I've done parties you name it. I love the products and it was not hard to sell. This is not a party business... This is so much more special than that.

This is healing. This is health. This is Quality of Life. For me I have been able to lay hands on people and oil them up while praying for health & healing. I have been able to cry over the joys of being able to be pain free. This is so much more than a party... this is a celebration of something that God made. He gave us plants and someone has been brilliant enough to realize that through the Immune System of those plants through the life blood of a plant we have something that crosses the blood brain barrier and initiates healing from the inside out. This is incredible. I can't not share that. 

I feel personally I did not stumble onto this by accident. It's on purpose. He does things on purpose. If we take the time to sit and listen and be still... in my season of waiting I called and I let my soul rest.. His grace abounds in deepest waters. 

He never fails us. 

Oils are not a cure all.. I know that. I have however heard and seen with my own eyes the power of health. I just feel like I am calling the Spirit to lead me even though the world is full of skeptics, full of doubt.. We are stronger in HIS presence... I want to get out of the boat... sick of being in the boat. What would it look like if we lived life away from the fear that has us stuck in the boat. I feel alive. Trust is scary.. I almost gave up again this week.. told the Stallion that black heart was looking better and better... but then I looked up and realized if I call upon His name He will keep my eyes above the waves. I can jump out of the boat and walk into the life He has for me. I want to make a difference I want to share my life, my heart. That is why I am passionate about sharing the oils. I have lived for too many years under the shadow of Depression and Anxiety and caring what people think. For 34 years.. that's enough. I am enough. 

I am letting Him guide my heart. I mean after all He is the one who has been fixing it up. What does your boat look like? Lets jump!!