Monday, October 15, 2007

pinching pennies...

I think I talked about this once before. My lack of faith in regards to being taken care of.. financially speaking. In the life we had before this one :) we were in full time ministry and we raised all our own support which was challenging at best. But for some reason I always knew it would just work out just faith that was anchored deep down. I had seen it happen in the craziest ways.. last minute miracles.
My faith is just not the same as it used to be. I guess maybe too many wind storms have begun to pull up my anchor and my faith is swept away... Dave started school today.. 9 weeks. He is an apprentice in his trade which means every year he goes to school. He was excited for the change and I think feeling like new confidence would come with some schooling under his belt. I know this was always in the plan but today I woke up panicked... we spent the weekend talking about things we would have to do differently in these next 9 weeks... He goes on unemployment so he only gets a percentage of what he made... unemployment takes up to 5 weeks to get....
I vowed to not spend a penny on scrapbooking (with the exception of the November kit), not as many Tim's runs, eating out is out of the question... just the bare necessities. Why is this so hard to live with less? Its clear to me the timing of everything is obviously bigger than us... so today i will be reminded that I have all I need... my kids have all they need in us (and a few cases of diapers). Thanks for letting me share. Just needed to get it off my chest.

6 comments:

carly smith said...

sounds like we can be eachothers encouragement in spending less. amazing how God challenges different people in the same ways at the same time.....

Christy said...

I can totally relate to this post Heather! When we had our second baby Liv, my husband and I decided that he would take parental leave so he could be with the kids and I. He goes back in December...making it 9 months total off. It was quite a pay cut being on EI but I can assure that God has provided the whole time! Even when we were waiting the 5 weeks for the EI to kick in, we saw the hand of God! Your hubby going to school is a part of His plan and He WILL take care of you! He will provide so that your husband can better himself to provide for you and the babies! I will be praying for you!

Mary Anne Roy (nee Sebrins) said...

hey heather,
It's Mary Anne (Dave's old friend from ontario). I know how trying it can be with having a husband in the trades, especially one who works off contracts and lists. My husband is a boilermaker, so there is NEVER steady work and it was especially stressful when we went to school, but everytime things got really stressed God always seem to hold us through until the next job or whatever. It REALLY can try your trust and faith in God. Sometimes you are see how God came through and are thankful, but then the next tight-for-money time rolls around and it's like stress city all over again, but once again HE takes care of us. I can't imagine (yet) what it will feel like to have those stresses with children, but God came through before and He will again, especially because you are taking care of two of his precious kids.
Anyways, I don't normally share but i really related to what you were saying. I hope it helped.
Much Love

marcy said...

You'll make it Heather!!!

tammy said...

Heather I can relate! When Jer had his business it was a very stressful time. But God provided for us, and we survived. I learned to be happy with a lot less. I'll be praying for you!!

anita said...

totally there with you Heather. right now i'm contemplating quitting my job due to stress issues and it's hard to think of all the "giving up of things" i'll have to do. we don't go out to eat either and i've learned to make my own "mochas!" maybe you'll have to come down for one sometime! ;) keep trusting Heather. it'll be ok.