Friday, August 15, 2008

falling apart

i feel like i am falling apart... this week brings me back to when the babies were little and i was at my wits end with them. it was so hard to manage... even though physically this is easier.. mentally and emotionally i am back at the beginning where i started.
where did my well behaved little mellow sweethearts go.. i find all day long my most spoken words are "what is wrong with you?" ok ok the white lines on the back of their gums must surely be the culprit i know that but it doesn't make it any easier... with another transition on the horizon (going back to work) we need to figure out a way to make this work. the summer was so good... i was loving the ease my boys gave me..
anyways just feeling uberly emotional and on the brink of falling apart at a moments notice. thankful for good friends who bring me a meal on a really bad day and offer to babysit when they must have something better to do.. for people who ask me if my day got better when we meet in a random place. it's those things that help me realize that for better or worse i won't drown.. i'm just riding the waves.

9 comments:

Steve said...

Hey Heather, I know what you mean, well, I think I do. I find that motherhood seems to go in waves. Sometimes I'm riding nice and smooth and feel like I have it all together, kids are wonderful and I'm feeling like the greatest parent in the world-than other days it seems like a rough ride and I wonder what happened to my cool, calm and collected parenting and wondering where my perfect well behaved children. :) Keep riding, we're all there with ya! Trena

valerie said...

Hey Heather...I hear you. Totally get it. We're all in it together ;)

The Nilsen's Journey said...

Heather, I feel for you! We're in teething mode too & those hard days I just don't feel myself either! And I wonder where my beautiful little boy went...then I just try super hard to imagine how hard/painful it must be for him. I find it helpful on those days to get out of the house & do something different. It often distracts us all from the fussiness & pain. You'll be in my prayers!

Stacey said...

I could have written that post last night :) Thanks for being real. It seriously helps me to know that I'm not the only one.

anita said...

you're amazing...you really are...i too feel like i'm falling apart many times in a day...hang in there!

Amanda said...

I love you. You rock. I know you don't feel it, but you really are supermom. I think that about you so often randomly throughout the day.

Tam said...

I remember right before Christmas Kade was getting his molars. The worst days of my mootherhood life!! I felt the same way!! It is soo exhausting when they are sooo whiney. Once they're out they turn into different kids. but when you're in it it feels like it will never end. My thoughts and prayers are with you You are a great mom!

Jamy said...

I felt that way with 1 molar teething boy. You have 2. I'll pray those teeth pop out soon and those cute boys of yours turn back to normal. Cause it happened that way for Caden.

Marcy said...

You'll get through it Heather! You're stronger than you think!