This has been on my mind lately. I have felt more insecure in the last few weeks than I can remember in awhile. Someone told me that part of the reason is because God's got lots of good stuff for me to do... I have been practicing "owning" my feelings but like a wise, wise friend told me I have to remember that my emotions are not the engine but should be the caboose. It's been a good reminder to me through out the day.
I guess I just want to be good at recognizing the truths and not sabotaging myself cause what someone else puts on me. My authentic self is a work in progress.
I have been loving being back at bootcamp this last week and seeing my girls make time for themselves for an hour. It's exhilarating (and hard) I am just filled with awe that I get to be a part of it. It's awesome.
We talked a bit about setting a goal for ourselves for the next 6 weeks and I have given it alot of thought.. I have some new goals for myself for this six weeks. Some are inside goals and some are physical goals.
1. Making a priority to get up before my family in the morning and spend some quality time with God. I joined a group of women who are going through Ephesians and it's an online group through a good friend of mine. I am really looking forward to this time to grow.
2. Continue with my Gratitude List. I did this last summer and into fall and then for some reason stopped. I want to write down each day 5 things I am thankful for. I think speaking truth and gratefulness can take out some of the self doubting talk I can so easily fill up on.
3. Loose my final 7 pounds. This is a big one for me... I know 7 doesn't sound like a big number but this has been the worst part... This last bit has really brought me down and made myself believe I can't do it.. and some days the sabotage is too much too bear. I need to see myself differently and I believe having number 1 and 2 on my list will help with this one.
4. Bathing Suit shopping... I just want it to be easier. I want to feel better about it. This is the year.
So heres to you and your story.. may you own it and always feel a sense of love and belonging.