Sunday, January 15, 2012


This has been on my mind lately. I have felt more insecure in the last few weeks than I can remember in awhile. Someone told me that part of the reason is because God's got lots of good stuff for me to do... I have been practicing "owning" my feelings but like a wise, wise friend told me I have to remember that my emotions are not the engine but should be the caboose. It's been a good reminder to me through out the day.
I guess I just want to be good at recognizing the truths and not sabotaging myself cause what someone else puts on me. My authentic self is a work in progress.
I have been loving being back at bootcamp this last week and seeing my girls make time for themselves for an hour. It's exhilarating (and hard) I am just filled with awe that I get to be a part of it. It's awesome.
We talked a bit about setting a goal for ourselves for the next 6 weeks and I have given it alot of thought.. I have some new goals for myself for this six weeks. Some are inside goals and some are physical goals.
1. Making a priority to get up before my family in the morning and spend some quality time with God. I joined a group of women who are going through Ephesians and it's an online group through a good friend of mine. I am really looking forward to this time to grow.

2. Continue with my Gratitude List. I did this last summer and into fall and then for some reason stopped. I want to write down each day 5 things I am thankful for. I think speaking truth and gratefulness can take out some of the self doubting talk I can so easily fill up on.

3. Loose my final 7 pounds. This is a big one for me... I know 7 doesn't sound like a big number but this has been the worst part... This last bit has really brought me down and made myself believe I can't do it.. and some days the sabotage is too much too bear. I need to see myself differently and I believe having number 1 and 2 on my list will help with this one.

4. Bathing Suit shopping... I just want it to be easier. I want to feel better about it. This is the year.

So heres to you and your story.. may you own it and always feel a sense of love and belonging.


Tam said...

Yea for recognizing the lies the enemy is feeding you! Put him under your feet, and know that you are a child of the KING! You are beautiful inside and out! And getting up before everyone else and spending time with God will be a great start to your day. And giving thanks in all circumstances, although hard at times, will help keep your focus on God. Be blessed my friend.

valerie said...

Love your goals. I'll be here supporting you :)