Saturday, March 28, 2009

for real.

i know a girl. she is a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother and a friend. she is wounded, forgiven, hard working, loyal, fearful and aware of grace. she lives in a world of judgement, a hill of hope and a valley of self doubt. she is on a good day pretty self confident and on a bad day she can barely see through tears. she desires real vulnerability and a community of truth. she can see through most bull shit and yet finds herself consumed with self loathing.
she tries to keep a nice home, a well fed family, good looking kids and a successful business. she wants to love her husband as he deserves and she doesn't want to yell at her kids but often falls short. she would rather have you see her for who she is than gloss over everything with perfect words and a i'm fine all the time attitude.
most days she feels alone but lately she finds when she opens up and lets you see her for who she is she is astounded at the amount of others who are just longing for the same thing.
she wants you to know you are not alone.
she wants you to know that motherhood is hard work and those who act like it isn't are lying.
that being a wife isn't always easy.
that being a good everything is not attainable.
she wants you to know that there is grace for each day.
her kids love her in spite of all her shortcomings.
her husband longs for her to see how beautiful she really is.
her friends think she is fun.
her parents really truly believe in her and can't imagine life without her being in it.
she wishes she could go back and change some of the things she's done and the people she has hurt but she is realizing that she just has to keep walking out truth and believing that grace is hers again and again.
she is me.

18 comments:

teresia benedicta&johanna anna said...

usually, i'm a lurker, but i just had to comment on this one:

thank you!
that's just so true, real and it sooo fits me at the moment

and i esp. love the quote:
"she wants you to know that motherhood is hard work and those who act like it isn't are lying"

thank you again!

leslie

p.s: can i copy it?

valerie said...

and this girl wants you to know that she you are someone special. so special that God allows you to use your words to change the way people think/act/feel.

Thank you. For being you.

Crystal said...

her friends think she's even more than just fun :)

Dixie Vandersluys said...

That's beautiful, Heather.

EH said...

that's beautiful... and so true. most of us try to hide behind perfection so that all will look well but neglect to share the inside... the part that is struggling. God Bless.

Amanda said...

I also know this girl. I know this girl whose words are more poignant and poetic and touching than she realizes. I know this girl who is fiercely loyal to all those close to her. I know this girl who is willing to work hard to achieve her goals. I know this girl who often puts aside her own needs for those of her family. I know this girl who is so wonderfully real that others can only aspire to be that real, open, and honest. I know this girl who despite what she sees and thinks, is stunningly beautiful and caring and loving and such a good example to her children. Through her, her children are learning to be true to their emotions, to love with every fibre of thier being and to embrace thier mistakes and learn from them. They know without a doubt, that their mom is doing the best job that she knows how.

I love this girl. I love everything she is and aspires to be. I love how she influences those around her, just by being who she is. I love her enthusiasm and her giggle when she's excited. I love her vulnerability when she is honest and open.

This girl is simply true. Love that.

DavenHeather said...

i love all of you. wow. words fail me. thanks for being there.

Jenelle Suderman said...

Beautiful H!

Tam said...

you brought tears to my eyes. thank you for sharing this!!

RLE said...

Wow! I could have written that, you hit all the things that I think/feel. Thank you for sharing I needed to know that someone else was feeling like this too.
I love that you are always so open and willing to say it like it is. And often times the way you say it is so beautiful. Thanks!

anita said...

Love it. i think you are great. you have an amazing way with words. thanks for being real.

Angela said...

Thank you for touching my heart!

Holly said...

i admire your bravery, baring your soul like that. you are very special to me ♥

Marcy said...

:)

Karla said...

Real. Gritty. Authentic. Honest...

Just how I like it.
Just how I like you.

Jen said...

I noticed you at the parenting conference. I'm so glad we went it opened my eyes to how life really is. More people need to real. Just like your words.
From one mom to another
Your doing an AWESOME JOB!

Emily Deu said...

Thanks for being real and honest like you are...you are beautiful and I miss you.

Thanks for sharing.

Lisa said...

oh Heath.

love ya.
keep being real.