father's day twenty twelve.

Small boys become big men through the influence of big men who care about small boys. ~Anonymous

 We sang a song today in church and it stirred my heart in many ways. I was struck with an overwhelming sense of love from above. I was also reminded that I am surrounded by two men in my life who display these characteristics.. their hearts are so good.

"Everyone needs compassion, a love that's never failing, Let mercy fall on me. The kindness of a Saviour."

compassion, love, mercy and kindness. yea that about sums these guys up. so thankful for men who don't always follow the rules, inspire deep thought, instil rooted wisdom, give bottomless forgiveness never based on what you do and man they just know how to let loose and have fun.

The boys and I fulfilled the Stallion's wish and rewarded him with a super manly chain saw. He was grinning from ear to ear and has been reading the manuel ever since.

On the traditional side of things I want to start this every year. It was so fun to ask them these questions and see their answers. I asked them one on one and they loved it too. I think it hit the spot with the Stallion.

Happy Father's Day.

two

Jett is sweet and sassy, observant and verbal, loud and mellow, determined and not afraid of anything.

Here are some of our observations on his 2nd birthday.

-He has priceless facial & verbal expressions
-Jett's new favorite word - yuckadoo's (what he calls it when he needs his diaper changed)
- Jett is forever forming his lips into an O and exclaiming "Look!"
-He will grab you by the hand and take you to see the things he is excited about
-Each morning as we turn off our driveway he screeches COW at the top of his lungs.. "Cow Mommy?" Over and Over until we finally reach the Hwy where either the cows are grazing and he squeels with delight or the field is empty and he says "Cow Sleeps Mommy?" "Yes Jetty Cows are sleeping"
Then He says "Shirley Mommy? Carter Mommy? Chelsea Mommy?" Over and Over until we get to Shirley's.
-He is observant as anything.. when we turn down a certain street he knows if we are going to see Papa or Shirley.
-He yells Daddy at the sign of any big white work truck.. (you know how many of them there are in town???)
-Ok and I should add his relationship with his Daddy is something special.. he LOVES Daddy.. will reach for him over anyone else and runs arms open to the door each day after work. This boy loves his Daddy.. pretty sure the feeling is totally mutual.
-He loves to eat. Especially yogurt.. LOVES yogurt and all fruit. He's not really picky as long as yogurt, cottage cheese or fruit is not in his plain view he will eat what's on his plate.. show him fruit and he's a goner...

-He still takes a bottle and I LOVE it... in fact he kind of stopped for a bit and then now he begs at around 5:00 for a bottle.. he likes to be laid on the couch while watching a show.. it's sweet. (so yes I am that mom and I DON'T care)
-He is loveable and cuddly.. and can snuggle into the crook of your neck. Especially if you are Daddy or Papa, or Cody (aka CooCoo).
-He loves to say names and knows all the important people in his life. It may not always sound exactly like there real name but it's Jett's loveable way.
-He does not like to sleep in the car!

-But he does LOVE to sleep. We are still relishing 3.5 hour naps in the afternoon and an early bedtime. As long as he has his baby (blanket) he is good. I had a blankie growing up and it was so special to me.. kind of glad he has one too.
-He has a love/hate relationship with Ari & Noah.. when they play with him he beams and get so excited.. when they bug him or ignore him he often finds a toy hammer or something and wacks them with it.. often if he has an object like that in his hand A & N run screaming.. It's kind of funny.
-He has never and shows no interest in saying Noah.. he says Ari (he rolls his r - it's awesome) but will not say Noah...

Our family would never be the same without him. He adds life to us. So thankful to have him here. Happy Birthday sweet boy.

waiting...

on the eve of your 2nd birthday... when our family of four became a family of five. we celebrate you sweet baby Jett.

reminiscing...

Monday, May 31, 2010

What a day!! It’s already 2 p.m. and I feel like a prisoner. So much waiting. My sleep was not great… just seems always interrupted and noisy. The ice lady filling water jugs at 3 a.m. was a big hit. Bleh. I have a grumpier than normal nurse and feel neglected. Baby had some low heart tones this morning which was a little disconcerting but maybe helped push up my fetal assessment. I was bought down shortly after 10 and seen at maybe 10:45. It was nice to see him. He is perfect and moving and doing really well. He is about 6lbs and measuring perfectly in all ways. He still have some fluid around him which is good. I came back up shortly before noon and have been waiting to see a doc since. It’s crazy to me that I have not seen one dr since I arrived here. I am getting super impatient and really just want to go home. I hope the plan can be to get me there. I want to keep him inside till after Sunday so I can just deliver at Boundry Trails and we can be close to home. This being here is not fun. I am really disappointed I really wanted this to be different. I should be home with my kids getting ready for the baby and just being with my family. Not this. I am all alone. I am lonely and bored.

What a day.. I am emotionally exhausted.  I waited all day to see someone and finally saw a resident who was very helpful. He did go speak with Dr. Lee on the phone and I guess her plan was for me to stay till 36 weeks and induce me then. I think with the water being broken they don’t want the cord to go down… They seem fine with me going home but I am unsure of how to make this decision. I mean what if I go home and something happens I am right back here… Every day he stays in is best. I was even unsure after speaking to Marla.. she was hard to read.

As of right now I am waiting on Dr. Lee and after that I will reevaluate according to what she says. I think I will stay the night and see what the night brings.. and decide to maybe go home tomorrow then. I feel like that’s the conclusion God prompted me towards. So we will see what she says.

Dr. Lee was nice.. sort of. She thought it would be fine for me to go home tomorrow and gave me a ilst of things to look for. There protocol is to induce at 36 weeks so hopefully Marla can convince Dr. Knoss to do that for me at Boundary where I can be closer to home. I lost some more fluid again this evening so hopefully all goes as planned. It is funny cause part of me almost wants him to just come so we don’t have to question all this. I want him to be whole and healthy. But if labor came on tonight that would make the week much easier. I plan to be on bed rest at home and pray that all goes well and we can push it to next week. I think Dave’s mom is going to come and stay with us… it would be best to have someone there … even if I do go into labor or even if I am induced we would have someone with the boys then. Taking care of things. It would be a nice relief. I am hoping for good sleep tonight. Jenelle is bringing  me chips and slurpee.. will be a nice way to watch a movie tonight and hopefully sleep really well without being woken up for antibiotics.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Well here we are… after a pretty good sleep I am ready to face today. I am waiting to see the dr and hopefully get the a ok to go home. The discharge orders are in so that is good news. A little unsure of what the week will hold and just praying that I can safely make it through the week with NO drama. I just want to be home with my guys. Dave’s mom is flying in tomorrow evening and spending two weeks with us. I am thankful for her willingness and her help. It will make things so much easier. I will have to learn to let go and just accept help this week that is for sure. I feel so badly for the boys.. missing their birthday party and just the way this has all played out. Hopefully we can do another party this weekend.. I want them to feel celebrated. 

Okay Baby you need to stay put and stay active. Body you need to resist any infection and stay healthy. Thank you Lord for keeping him safe thus far and for the amazing support we have from friends and family. We are very blessed.

Home Tuesday June 1

Admitted to St. Boniface due to fear of prolapsed cord Wednesday June 2. Same bed, same room as I was 4 years ago with the boys.

No one really wanted me there so I was discharged Thursday morning back home to wait.

Sunday tried everything I could think of to induce labor.. was 36 weeks a that point. Nothing seemed to work which was a good thing.

To Be Continued.