There are just so many things going on in my head... I'm often afraid of how they will sound on my blog.. The thoughts are usually deep and then people think you are sad or depressed or they feel sorry for you when in reality they are just deep thoughts.. not always bad.
In some ways this has been an emotionally draining summer. Just life stuff. Again not always all bad. In alot of ways this summer has been one of the best I can remember. So again there goes the topsy turvy part of life. One minute your up.. the next your down.
We have been struggling to find a community... not only a church but people too..
Relationships are hard and we really want to go deeper.
I have always been the pursuer... in most of my relationships. It's exhausting. I totally understand that we are all different. Some days it's so confusing... do they not call because they would rather not hang out or is it something else. Am I too eager? Are my kids annoying? I find if I don't call I'm lonely. We have felt this way as a couple for awhile... we invite people over and wait for an invite... yep mostly still waiting. So is it us?
We figure maybe if we find a church we can really feel like we fit in then maybe we can make a community of friends from there?? We've only really visited one place which I really like. In so many ways... and of course there is never going to be the perfect place but sometimes when that one big thing that you are passionate about is missing.. it's hard to get past that. I told Dave I don't want to drag my kids around from place to place... it just doesn't feel fair to them. You would think in a smaller community with a million churches it would be easier....
I went to work today... again I felt kind of like a stranger. I mean it was awkward.. nothing was mine anymore. I didn't even have a desk to sit at.. I walked to the supply room to get a pen to use for the morning and then put it back when I was done. I know it will get better but part of me wanted to be home in my comfy yoga pants and a tank top fetching snacks and playing outside with the boys.
See this went all depressing on you.. and yet I feel hopeful. I mean I love where I am going I just wish it wasn't quite as lonely. I see great things on the horizon. I am feeling stronger than ever and am so excited to see how fall will turn out... big things. Back to work, Kindergarten, Bootcamp... a whole lot of awesome.
Can't leave you without a photo... Lisa took some family shots for us the other night... See how blessed I am...
As you all know I am a huge fan of TheTysonMethod... I have been doing bootcamps and a part of the online program since November. I have also been training this summer and am officially a Tyson Method Trainer. Eeeks.. Can you believe it??
I have had my ups and downs but have more confidence now than ever before. I feel strong. It's incredible. It's been life changing. A couple Saturday's ago Charles & Tami (Tyson) hosted a fitness competetion. A fun family day where we competed in an individual obstacle course and did some team tug of wars.
It was scary. The course was INTENSE... Unlike anything I have ever done. And after i did it I can safely say way harder than it looks. At the end of my go at it.. which seriously felt like forever. When I was pulling in that 200lb rope I was sure I had been there for at least 5 minutes. At the end Charles yells "you have the best time so far!" WHAT??!!! It was crazy.
I did end up 3rd place. Me!
yep 200lb rope.
It's been an incredible journey so far and I can't wait to start in September. I'd love to have you in class!! Seriously you will NEVER regret taking the time to do this. It's amazing what it can do when you make changes.
So I'd love to have you all come to bootcamp this September. Starting Sept. 12th!! Please msg me for more info. You will never regret it!!
i'm happy to have you join us on our life voyage. as we tread, swim, back stroke and somedays we feel like sinking. i believe in non judgmental, real life. I am a mom to three boys including a set of twins and married to a fantastic, patient hot italian stallion. I'm terrified most of the time but believe in feeling it all. I am a wellness educator and advocate. I love sharing with people how to reduce their exposure to toxins in their home and to support your wellness naturally using Young Living essential oils and oil infused products!